pure waste

Sometimes I just feel that everyone around me just uses me and straights up neglects me straight after.

Yeah, writing this on a blog and living a proper life outside seems contradicting but I don't tell anyone anything so there's no harm in writing stuff here. It'll just be looked over.

I update less to focus on my life but I realise, sometimes it's just not worth it. With lesser updates, people don't visit this space..that's good enough. I don't need people.

Today is proof that I am nothing but a pushover and a total waste. I should really kill myself when I had that chance.

You told me that you could wait, but you went ahead and let that greedy money mongering mind of yours take over. I believed you.... Why didn't you chase your champion..your fucking favourite savior-of-all for it when he brought it home? Why? Why not now? There's always time to step all over me. The more I compare, the deeper this void grows in me.

I don't talk enough to make myself heard, I don't waste my time spewing hypocrisy upon hypocrisy out of my mouth just to sound clever, I don't need this anymore. I don't lie unnecessarily, but I still get trampled upon. My trust is nothing but a fat whore waiting to be fucked and played around again and again.

What was the deal? OH FUCK! I just realised, it's to stab me in the back! NOW I KNOW!

Thank you for making me feel this miserable after a long time.