There's nothing to look forward to, everyday is a waking drag. I don't even get enough sleep anymore, every few hours of sleep will be disrupted and there I will lay looking up to the ceiling.
Feeling bothered, not knowing what is bothering. Then I fall asleep again, just to reawaken again after another 2 hours. This pattern has been bugging me more than any project/assignment submission stress.
Thoughts of failure always cross the mind from time to time and it sneaked into my slumbering thoughts every night. I sleep approximately 3 hours each day now. I find nothing can help and I don't trust pills just to sleep.....yet.
I just hope this will not continue any longer. I can't stand the nauseousness I feel when I'm in the lecture hall, and everything turns into a massive garble of words, mumbling and blurry. I want something, but I fear I won't find this anytime soon, I don't even know what I want is it that my body wants or is telling me.
May I get enough sleep tonight.
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